The Real Deal.

I'm not sure what this part of my life should be called, but I know God is teaching me things through it. Right now, I feel as though everything that I try to do in worship is going downhill. But I don't feel worried..cause I know it's what I'm called to do. But I have been "saving" songs in my head to do when I lead again. But the BIG MAN upstairs has a sense of humor. Any of the songs that I wanted to be selfish about and lead them myself, he's given to the leaders in my church to sing! Talk about unfair/silly/ridiculous! In those moments and even while writing this, I just have to laugh at myself. I shouldn't be concerned about leading them. That's not my job. My job when leading is to lead. Not to sing the best or to make the band sound the greatest. God is trying to shape me into a selfless, humble person. It's a hard change..but I truly am trying to seek after His own heart in order to change mine.