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Scratch the whole worry thing, I gave it to God.  He'll help me deal.

Worry

You know, I worry way too much.  I try not to, but it's my downfall.  It's so hard not to be pessimistic about some things in life.. even when things are good, I start to worry - how could I be so blessed? Even though I've never really been screwed over in my life, it's a huge fear of mine.. Am I really worth it? I just don't believe it.  I can be such a strong person but once I start doubting peoples capabilities and my own, I start to break down. Every time it happens, I tell myself I know better....but it's a gradual change. I can't all of a sudden shove off my worry.  But I want you to know - I need you to know, I'm trying. I truly am trying.

Cinco de Mayo

This blog actually has nothing to do with Cinco de Mayo, just in case you got really excited to hear a story about a drunk Katie Suho. Anyways, school is almost over.  I can't believe it.  I'm scared for the future.  The other day I questioned if I could really handle nursing and so much schooling - but then I shut up and told myself I could.  I always over think things way too much...I'd do a lot better in situations if I was just thrown into things and didn't have time to think about it.  And what's the point of buying a cap and gown?  I mean, mine right now is just chilling in my closet - and it'll be there for about a month until I use it for a couple hours and then probably pull it out a couple years from now for when I move out of my house.  Such a waste of money, I think.  Except the tassel is nice...I'm definitely keeping that. (:  Anyways, I don't really have a main thing to write about tonight..or lately.  I need some motivation! This weather needs to get even nicer so I can go outside and relax and get great ideas to post on here for my two followers that probably don't even read this!! Well, it's time that I stop before I really embarrass myself.  Just kidding, I'm not saying anything embarrassing.  But I'm tired.  Night alllllllll.