Worry

You know, I worry way too much.  I try not to, but it's my downfall.  It's so hard not to be pessimistic about some things in life.. even when things are good, I start to worry - how could I be so blessed? Even though I've never really been screwed over in my life, it's a huge fear of mine.. Am I really worth it? I just don't believe it.  I can be such a strong person but once I start doubting peoples capabilities and my own, I start to break down. Every time it happens, I tell myself I know better....but it's a gradual change. I can't all of a sudden shove off my worry.  But I want you to know - I need you to know, I'm trying. I truly am trying.